sometimes

sometimes, i'm asking myself  "y i wan chosen to becum a human?"
sometimes,i'm asking mysel  "y i wan here?"
sometimes,i'm asking myself  "y we must be a human not a bird or could?"
sometimes,i'm asking myself  "y we must eat tat stupid rice?"
sometimes, i'm asking myself  "as a human being, y we must communicate wif others?"
sometimes,i'm asking myself  "y i can same wif others, gt anythings they wan?"
sometimes,i'm asking myself  "dose us hv a "renew" button for our life?"
sometime, i'm asking myself a lot of such stupid questions.........

hate..............and wat i wan

i hate ppl force me to go their activities
i hate go to tzu ji activities
i hate staying at honme
i hate my life now
i hate to eating the rice
i hate the noisy sound
i hate raining day
i hate the bored feel
i hate my new hairstyle
i hate to talk
i hate to smile

i wan to be alone
i wan to diet
i wan to have a slim body
i wan freedom
i wan sunny day
i wan 2012 fast cum (end of the world)
i wan coloful life
i wan hang out
i wan free from the contract
i wan i-phone


      *i reali damn hate ppl force me...i damn hate go the boring place....i wan go countdown!!!!!!!!!!aaaarrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

sound of my heart

i reali tired wif all dis
y must u say tat i'm stupid?
y must u say tat i'm lazy to study?
y must u say tat i'm not good in study?
y must u say all dis?
i hate tat...
actually, i'm not stupid not useless, is u cant c wat i had perform in the exam~
u cant fel my feeling while study n exam....
every time exam, i scare i will be terminated....i scare,i stress i tension, i insomia.....but, all dis u cant fel it...

i neo i had been terminated from tat college, but u think tat i want?

u never heard wat i say n wat i want

i dun wan to give a speach even tat juz a word when u scold me or talk wif me...
not bcoz i'm agree wif wat u say
juz bcoz i'm lazy to explain...i neo tat u wont agree wif wat i think...so, i chose to speachless...

i reali dun wan go 4 work...it wasting my time~

i neo u juz think bout ur $$....
whatever~if one day, i reali chose go away fram dis world, tat's mean i reali reali reali very tired wif all things around me~

now, i juz can say:
it's tired to be a human being
it's tired to be a wonderful human
it's tired to follow wat u want n ignore wat i want
it's tired to be a good human......

去你的

我讨厌你

不要以为我要看你的眼色你就好料

慈屁啦...黑心肝
孽人

我讨厌你

我真的越来越讨厌你
每次不听我把话讲完就张开你那可恶的大嘴巴乱讲话
不懂又装懂
讲话谁都会讲
但，你能做到你讲的吗？


讲我用脾气跟人家讲话，你还不是一样~
我都还没讲完你就乱骂乱喊乱发表意见了
听了都讨厌


我受不了你了！！！！！

time

              17/12

hang out day wif friends...we went to pacific n a.s mall...

we went to a.s mall for meet the dj from one fm, nt7 n 8tv...they came here to promote their CNY album...

after meeting the dj, we go to  e-box to singing~

let the photo share the story of the day

after singing, we went to "hai tao ki"...we having of dinner + supper at there...reach home around 10 something...having a nice day wif my buddy....wow~hope we can hava another outing day agian soon....

nothing to say

其实，我早已做好了最坏的打算和准备了
在你们面前，我强忍我的眼泪
当我真的忍不住了就跑出家外打电话给朋友——思华
我终于忍不住我的眼泪了

我承认，一开始我真的不喜欢这份工
我一直跟不到老师教的课
我拼命的读...
当时我真的很压力，甚至还想过要放弃

我知道，当你知道我要放弃的时候 你 哭了 
我知道你心痛...可是，当时我真的很压力...我快蹦快了
对不起...

渐渐的，我开始喜欢上这份工
当我看到病人一个个的康复出院，我真的很开心~
我 喜欢上当护士的感觉...
当病人跟我说“谢谢”的时，我就会有莫名的开心
我开心并不是得到他们的谢谢，我开心是因为我帮到他们

可是，当我努力的想把成绩考好的时候 已经太迟了
我的努力，我的改过，没人看到...
你们永远看不到我的努力
你们知道，你们会说“你不够努力”...
算了吧，我也不想讲太多~
总之，我有做到就是了...
越解释就会越闹越吵....

i'm sorry

grandpa, sorry

grandma. sorry

i make u all disappointed...

i know you all very disappointed with me...

i already try my best but all my trying become transparent....

我真的已经尽力了 可是 我还是失败

我发誓，我真的有尽力~可是，我的尽力 没人看到

无所谓吧...就当我是个没用的人好了

我已经习惯被人家这样看待了~

习惯就好....

真的对不起 让你们失望了

the moment

ya~i'm on my VL now~
enjoy my VL...
went to KL...MELAKA & GENTING
went there wif my beloved grandma , guanquan , jiasim & chiangyi...
we went there by FIRE FLY fligh
cum,let the photo tell the story about my trip

on the way to air-port

went for swimming...captured by chiangyi...i lik dis photo....thx a lot

we had a lot of fun there

nice sunset...

going to taiming towel...we can c the whole MELAKA trough the towel

the nite at GENTING

while waiting for our K room, we took photo wif santa...santa is coming to town....hohoho~~~

"eco" is dis year genting christmas theme...

the wind blow, the weather cool....i tell dear tat i'm hanging around on outside...dear ask me to go inside the hotel...he say he scare i fall sick...hehe...dear,dont worry lar~my anti-body stronger thn urs...^^v

is time to SING....

starbucks-ING wif chiangyi...

genting-ING...

huhu...the time pass very fast...my VL gonna end soon...
i dun wan go back to there lar...i HATE there...

VL

yeah,babeh~
is VL now...
i wan 2 enjoy my 2 weeks VL...

yesterday when i reach home,jia hua,.wen kai, xiao jia, chun keat n shu ning cum to my house....
we had a lovely n hapi gathering~wow~
some of us neo eachothers since we small....now,we neo each other 18years ady~huhuhu....

at nite,we when to c kopitiam....many of us....
buddy, i love u all

mayb

yesterday went out again wif frens
we went to PRAGIN MALL, KOMTAR & 1ST AVENUE....

we had captured a lot photo

mayb dis is my last time to crazy wif u all
mayb dis is my last time to take photo wif u all
mayb dis is my last  time to hang out wif u all
mayb dis is the last time i stand bside u all

there're a lot mayb now...

i hope the mayb will not come true
god, plz bless me.....

sorry

such a "good" news
mayb i cant study at here ady...mayb i cant b a student nurse anymore...mayb i will leave here soon...
well,whatever~
even tat i say how many times "dun wan", it will happen too
even tat i spend how many tear, i oso mayb will leave here soon

sorry to my beloved families members

sorry bcoz i make u all disapointed 
sorry bcoz i not clever enough 
sorry bcoz i not the perfect gal
sorry bcoz i make u sad
sorry bcoz i make u worry
sorry bcoz i of my lose

sorry 4 all....

ady long time didnt cry but dis time i reali cant stand my tear anymore...
i kip crying

boring weekend

2day is my OFF DAY~wuhhoooo....

but nth 2 do in the hostel

kip watch drama...

huhuhuhu.....duno wan go where~

i'm waiting 4 2moro n VL....

2molo after morning shift am will going ou wif frenzzz....yeah~shopping......

ya~babeh....my VL is around the corner...

i'm getting excited to welcum my VL...

KL, wait me ya~

i'm comimg soon

my time

ya,babeh~i like morning shift...

yesterday(26th) after morning shift i went to QUEENSBAY MALL wif jazz n her fren...

i neo i had mensure many times ady i went 4 queensbay....

we hunt a lot of biscuit n junk food at there....wahaha....

i'h here again

hhhmmm...quite a long time i didnt drop my life story at here ady...
not am lazy juz bcoz am busy....
busy wif hang out wif fren
busy wif shoppping
busy wif posting to ward
busy in my life~

last wednesday(14/11) was public holiday...
am went out wif ah jie, shee hua n krystle...
we start our journey at 10 something in the morning
we want to PRAGIN MALL by bus...
we went to play ting ting after tat we had our lunch at MC'D....
after ate, we went to QUEENSBAY MALL by bus again...
when the bus stop at the bus stop near our college, some of my coursemate oso went into the bus...
our destination are the same...
wow~the bus full wif our voice...haik hiak hiak...
actually, the purpose we went there is skate but the price is toooo "cheap" ady...(rm20 per person)....siao~
we change our plan...we want 4 window shopping...
william cum n fetch us back coz tat moment he oso at penang...
we reach hostel~after putting my stuff in my room,i still went out wif him...
we go queensbay mall AGAIN...oh my GHOST~
we take MC'D as our dinner....haizzz....MC'D AGAIN....
so many again.....
after tat i straight go back to hostel....it was a raining nite~

21th, i went to QUEENSBAY MALL(again) wif lydia, ker lee, nadira n hidayah by uncle meng car(someting lik taxi)...we call him cum n fetch us n he charge us rm3 per person...
we had PIZZA as our lunch....tat day, the waiter in the pizza hut get scold by me...wahahaha...
after having our lunch, we eat MC'D ICE-CREAM....wow~nice....
SKATING is our next activities...
i fall down quiet many time...hahaha....my buttick very pain!!!!
after tat jia hua, ah qi n ah hao cum n find me...we went for shopping but nth 2 buy...
we done a CRAZY JOB during shopping....wahahah~
after tat i went back to meet lydia them...
after having our dinner, we went 4 shopping AGAIN( i like shopping)
we reach hostel at 9o'clock~
i enjoy the weekend....

i wan go back by now!!!!

actually, yesterday i decided go back 2 my hometown n help my grandparent 2 wash our house but alor star start flood-ing, many of the road n high way are close...so, i cant go back....SAD.....


last night went 2 stay at da gu's house...
we went 2 shopping at jusco...
i buy a pair of high hill shouse 4 2molo annual dinner n some cosmatic at sasa shop....
i spent rm200++ per nite....
suddenly fel tat i'm 败家女 
but, i not always spent money lik dis....
i long time didnt go 4 shopping ady...


ah my god~i start sick....FLU + FEVER.....
very suffer lar.....


2day morning , we went to pasar...
i go wif aunt yen lee, aunt yen chuan n ah bee...
we having our breakfast b4 went back...


we went to shopping again...
wahaha....i buy a new dinner dress 4 2molo annual dinner~


i reach hostel at noon....
they all going back 2 hometowm...i cant back~~~~~
i wan go back lar....sick some more......haizzz.........

4th

4th,luckly the water had decreas....
but,my house.........
oh my god....

photo showing time

thx, bitch tailand!!!!!

flood

oh my god....
flood in 2010 more worse thn 2005....

staright show u all the pic

thx thailand, thx 4 u all d "gift"o0o

wat the fuck....fuck u,mother fucker thailand

at 1st of november, my hometown-jitra,kedah FLOOD-ing~

it flood not bcoz of raining....it flood bcoz thailand pump their water to here...

wat the heell u wan,thailand...

i rseriously hate thailand....

ppl at thailand go 2 hell....

ppl at thailand r brainless + useless+ gatai + many aids

they still alive juz will make the world more DIRTY!!!!

my mummy n grandparents r busy moving our important things to hinger n higher...

haizzz....i blame myself y dis moment i'm not bside them....

i wan go back now!!! but i cant...i sit nid 2 sit on my terminal exam....

i cant concentrate on my study....

oh god,plz~plz bless them...

n plz gv the ppl in the tailand die...they r creating dis big horrible n terrible "jod"

befoer my family "escape" from flood...

take care

hhhmmm...
2day 12 midnight grandpa will go 2 china to enjoy his 1 week trip....


actually, sometimes i quite worry bout my grandparents...
i wonder they r i good condition or not
i wonder wat r they doing now
i wonder they take their meal ady


now, grandpa have a nice trip wif his bro n fren...
hope him can enjoy his trip n take care of himself when reach china...
hope he buy some present 4 me...hahaha...(dis is the main point)...


k lar...is time 2 off...i still hv class~

today...

hhmmm...i quite enjoy my class today...
i like 2day basic nursing science...
we learn how to take Haemo-Gluco Test(HGT)


wat is HGT?
HGT is blood glucose measurement...


we have chance to help our fren to take their HGT...
actually, at the beginning i scare pain...
haha...i kip asking my fren who have done their HGT is it pain or not...
i damn scare pain but i didnt scare to c the blood...
actually, i quite lik to c the blood...


finally, i dare to give my fren(teik sum) to take my blood n measure my blood glucose...
omg...my blood glucose level is 5.9
hh,,,....y will lik dis?
coz i juz finish having my tea break...


when the moment he put lancet on my finger i didnt fel pain but after finish the procedure, i start fel pain....
wuwuwuwu......pain lar~~~~untill now i still can fel the pain on my finger~T.T


2 to 4, we hv SDL...
i fel very bored at tat time, i draw n color poh khoon's procedure book...haha...i draw n color it till quite nice~
finally, i finish studying 1 subject-communication...
2nite wan start doing the questions 4 testing myself...


after class, we hv green acre...
we go n planting so vegetable...i duno we hv planting which type of vegetable coz i run here run where n take photo...haha....dis is my real character~ lik to take photo...photo is a part of showing n keeping our memory~
is time 2 show my photo~~~~dang dang dang dang~~~~~ladies n gentlemen.....show time~

anything so wired??

teik sum lik a thief

wei lin unlce...

                                                      they say i reali look lik acting....

                                            miss hidayah's shoes...she scare her shoes dirty...