真的很累

dis few days i less hang on my bolg coz i hv a lot of things 2 do...
posting 2 ward make me fel very busy, very tired n very.........dono very wat ady~

2nd in the ward.......eveing shift~
at the begening, we do passing report...
i still cant catch up the patients' dignosis....omg~i so slow 2 catch...
after tat, we help the patient do hair shampoo...
he is a chineses male patient....he admit 2 the ward bcoz he fal down from the ladder...
i do hair shampoo procedure wif khoon (couple team)....wahaha...we always act lik couple but actually we juz best fren~
after doing the procedure,i help the patient dry his hair...
he say ue very clever, he lay on the bed we oso can help him 2 wash his hair nicely.....
haha.....he oso say our service very....
hhmmmm....thx a lot
after doing hair shampoo, nth 2 do ady~
miss lee saw me nth 2 do thn at tat moment gt a new patient admit 2 our ward...she teach me how 2 do admission...
1st time do admission n oriantake patient....i fel nth~
y i'll fel nth? i oso dun....i'm wored preson...juz ignore my feeling~
2day, i do observation quite many times....bout 10-15 times...
hhmmm....i lik 2 take the patients' temperature,pulse n BP....i dun lik 2 take respiration...
i duno y....i bcoz i dun lik~
at nite b4 we sign out, gt a new patient admit here...
dis patient admit here bcoz of MVA(motor vehicle accident)...
he seen lik quite serious....
haizzzz.....my fren(boy) scare to take dis patient's BP....so wired....nvm~i help him 2 do...i lik 2 take BP wat~
well, nth scare 4 me...
fel very tired...legs very pain!!!!

3rd ady porting to ward.....last evening shift
passing report at the begening....
2day miss mazu is around....
she teach us bout admission....i told her i learn it yesterday...
she ask me 2 explain n show my group members wat should we do....
haha....i fel qiute confident when explain 2 to them...
althought i had done some mistake but i still fel very hapi coz i learn from mistake...
yeah~
2day quite angry 2 some1 coz she didnt did her own bay job n cum busybody others ppl bay...
y she wan do lik tat?
hhhmmmm....mayb she wan bulid good relationship between CI n her...
i dun lik dis kind ppl....y cant she show her own real facial?y she must waering a mask??
FAKE!!!!

4th day of posting 2 ward....1st day of morning...
wake up at 5am....wow~1st time wake up so early n ready 4 work...
i still fel sleepy when i reach hospital's cafeteria...i go n hit the cafeteria door..
haha...still blur blur....
we do passing report as usual...after tatwe do shower 4 a patient....
miss mazu book 2 bed bath n  2 shower 4 us...but at the end we juz did 2 bed bath n 1 shower...
bcoz gt a patient he dun wan 2 do shower,he scare cold...haha
he tell miss mazu“althought it is snowing, i oso dun wan 2 shower...”haha...dis patient quite fumy....
when i look at dis patient i fel wanna laugh...coz of his image...
his hair lik dragan ball d hero....haha....n the way he talk very funny....
juz now the staff nurse say when the doctor cum n visit him n ask him nid 2 take good care of himself,he straight tell the doctor“ i neo how 2 take care of myself lar....hahaha...”
wahaha...thn when he recieve his food, he complain bout the food...he say“ put a little bit salt 4 me, i wont die 1 lar...”lol.......dis patient realy very funny~
1st time help patient doing shower...quite interesting...we ask the patient 2 wash his private part by himself coz dis patient not a helpless patient.....
2day,we learn many things...
we learn urine analysis, spo2 n etc.....
2day got somethings make my my group members "hot"...juz ignore the sadness case lar~
b4 sign out, we do admission~
after bathing, i take a nap~such a nice nap 4 me~~~

脚酸

今天是我们sem1第一天posting to ward....
今天睡到9点半才醒因为今天做evaning shift

从1点半忙到9点才放工回来~
走来走去...忙来忙去
脚都累了，酸了

可是，今天学了和做了好多东西~
一到ward就准备passing report...
但因为今天staff nurse不够所以我有机会跟staff nurse send patient 去手术房
第一次推病人去手术房
原来，病人在等待进手术方的时候是酱的~
staff nurse跟我说，推病人和推死人是不一样的
推病人的时候，病人的床头是向前的
推死人的时候，病人的床头是向后的


passing report的时候我们都跟不上病人的dignosis...
那些词对我们来说太陌生了，我们都还没学到~


今天，我发现我们的ward很多病人都有肾脏的问题

要怎样才能停止流泪？

有人说“很多女生轻易掉泪，所以女生的眼泪显得不再珍贵”

谁说不珍贵？

每次流泪的背后都有一段故事...

我哭了...我流泪了...

每次回到宿舍我都会哭

我承认，我爱哭

但其实，这次我一点都不想哭

可是，我的眼泪还是留了下来

我不争气....回宿舍都会哭~

我一点都不想回到宿舍

看到宿舍我就有莫名的压力

看到宿舍我就有莫名的不安

看到宿舍我就有莫名的难过

我讨厌这种感觉...

除了流泪和哭，我再也想不到我还能做什么了~

我累了...

明明很不开心，却还在笑

明明很不安，却要当作若无其事

这一切 我 伪装得很累....

到底我还要伪装到什么时候？

我 快崩溃了~

i hate dis time

haizzz....
i hate dis moment...i reali hate dis moment...
y i hate dis moment?
coz i nid bck 2 my hostel life AGAIN...
i dun lik there
there such a JAIL 4 me...

btw,b4 i go back 2 the jail, i recieve a GREAT NEWS...
it was a good n hapi news 4 me...

grandpa buy new car!!!

nissan latio...

it's my dream car...wow~
but i most lik sport style....
anyway,nissan lation(normal) oso not bad...
i love it very much....
i hope dis car belongs wif me....^^

i wish~

haizzz....
EMO enough 4 me...
i wish i wont emo again....i wish i wont wake up from sleep again...i wish am i a hapi life...i wish smile again...
i wish....i wish....i wish.....

will my all wish cum true?
i reali hope my wish cum true...
god,plz let my wish cum true...

i still wan 2 wish ppl around me dun so fake wif their friendship....i wish they dun wear a mask...i wish they are not poker face...i wish i wont tired when facing them....

there are many wish i wish....
i reali dun lik such life...
many ppl around me are wearing their own different mask...y they wan wear a mask?
u all wont tired wif the mask? i so wonder....
plz tell me wat benifit u all wearing a mask?
y cant u all juz show ur own attitute?

haizzz.....there are alot of things make me sad n emo...
y my life bcum so dark n unhappy?

i wish i can find back my hapi life...

no word 2 discribe my feeling

haizzz....
few days didnt updata my blog ady....
what i hv done dis few days?
hmmm.....kip crying n kip been hate-ing by ppl...

actually,i dun lik 2 stay at here...
here hv a lot of gals n gossip...
many ppl say “女生多的地方就是gossip多的地方”
i reali agree wif dis...

i cry not bcoz gt ppl dislik me...
i cry is bcoz i reali miss my home but my family members didnt trust me tat i'm homesick...
actually,i reali homesick since 1st at college...
mayb i use 2 be live in own life n dun lik 2 mix wif ppl...
i prefere live in my life...

well, 2 days ady i didnt sms wif u...
is tat a good news 4 u n me or a bad news?
mayb is a good 4 u....coz no ppl disturb u anymore...
i admit i reali miss u but i not dare 2 tell u n sms u...
haizzz....anyway, i juz wan 2 shout out at here i reali miss u.....

finally at hometown now...
damn moody....

中秋节....moon cake festival...

呼~
终于考完试了...

6点多，我们一大班人到附近的kfc去吃kfc...
庆祝roomate的生日
哇~整间kfc都是我们的声音...
哈哈....

我今天吃很多也拍了很多照片...
走路回宿舍的途中我们还唱了“月亮圆，月亮圆...”和“你问，我爱你有多深....”
哈哈..疯狂

回到宿舍，扭开手机的收音机，听到one fm播很多熟悉的歌，让我想起家....

18年了，我第一次没有在家过中秋
感觉怪怪的....我又要哭了...我忍着我的眼泪....
因为我告诉过我自己一定要坚强，不要轻易掉泪~
我这次做到了....

不管怎样，祝大家 “中秋节快了”
月圆，人团圆~

change...变

时间一天一天的过

人也跟着一天一天的变？

心也开始变了？

或许吧~

该怎么说呢？

我们之间发生了什么事？

怎么变得那么冷淡？

你变得不再找我了，只有我找你

我们之间隔着一道墙....

我做错事了吗？

不懂....或许吧~

每次都对自己说“算了吧，不要再烦人家了，或许人家觉得我很烦”

但，我还是做不到不着你....

很笨对吧~

你，对我有什么不满就直接跟我说吧...我还接受的了~

我是时候开始学习 一个人生活！

加油吧

i addicted to dis song♥

We had a date I stood you up

you tried to call but I didn't pick up

Yeah forgot about our plans

Please for give your man for ruiningy our night so many times

I'm sorry I know you're mad

and I don't wanna be like every other man that you've had

so I'm stopping all these childish things

Girl you meanto much to me

your loveis worth to much to lose

Girl I know I broke your heart

and trusting me is really hard

but why'd you qui tI changed my ways

Starting today,today,starting today(wooah)

I know that I'm the one to blame

you say every mans the same

but why'd you quit I changed my ways

Starting today,today,starting today(wooah)

girl I'm starting today

It' stime to play the kiss and make up game

Now I appologised for the man I became

If I could do it all again I would hurt my bestfriend

and throw away all myselfish ways

I'm sorry I know you'r emad

and I don't wanna be like every other man that you'v ehad

so I'm stopping all these childish things

Girl you mean to much to me

your loveis worth to much to lose

Girl I know I broke your heart

and trusting me is really hard

but why'd you quit I changed my ways

Starting today,today,starting today(wooah)

I know that I'm the one to blame

you say every mans the same

but why'd you quit I changed my ways

Starting today,today,starting today(wooah)

girl I'm starting today

Girl I know I broke your heart

and trusting me is really hard

but why'd you quit I changed my ways

Starting today,today,starting today(wooah)

I know that I'm the one to blame

you say every mans the same

bu twhy'd you quit I changed my ways

Starting today,today,starting today(wooah)

girl I'ms tarting today

hhmmmm.....

“miss u...gud nite...”

OMG....i'm so speachless when recieve dis msg

actually, u should tel ur gf tat u miss her not me

i hate 2 reciever ur msg....i dun wan recieve ur msg....

u hv gf ady y stil always say u r single?

so wired.....

pls out of my world....

i'm single but my heart not belong wif u!!!!

*dis few days i reali very down...

what should i do?

i nid a good listener...

where can i find a good listener???

i juz kip crying n crying....

i nid a shoulder....i nid a listener....

i dun lik 2 smile anymore......

my smile very fake....

i try 2 hide my sadness very hard.....

my good listener, where r u? i'm finding u~~~

baby,cum back 2 me....baby,cum back 2 me

i'll be anything u nid.......................